ryan posted
"In general, I try to avoid doing these things on the Internet, but apparently this is the only place where you find it appropriate to share your feelings, so I'm just going to have to go with what works.

First of all, we WANT to be your friends. However, the last couple of days have involved you asking what we are doing, then deciding that you don't want to hang out with us (either because what we are doing is too boring or you just don't want to hang out with those particular individuals) and then asking what other people are doing. Which doesn't really go over well, because it makes us feel we're not good enough. So, if you want to talk about not feeling like you have a friend...

Second, I want you to tell me about this last time you turned to us when you were in a funk. In general, a funk involves you turning away from us if anything else...and then coming back later as if nothing happened.

Basically, it's just another case of the same. You have an issue with us, but you aren't confronting us with it...you're just telling the Internet. Which is a step above not telling anybody, I suppose. You keep talking about being that man of God...well be that man and take on your problems.

Whenever you want, I'm around. And believe it or not, I actually do want to hang out with you and spend time with you, despite the fact that this comment will probably make you think otherwise.

I have to go to Kirkland now."

here's my response:

alright, the last few days definitely have been weird ones. I call my friends because that is a nice thing to do, sometimes with the intent on hanging out and sometimes not. I like to know what they are doing, whether I am intending to hang out with them or not. when I ask about other people, that is because I have quite a few friends. and if you feel like I'm not your friend, I'm sorry and I'll work on that.

True that in times of funk or when the funketicity is high I hide and try and work it out myself(usually the problem is with friends) but I don't just do that, I go and I talk to other friends that I have(remember, I have quite a few)... and when I'm in a funk I turn and talk to other friends that I know will help me and listen to me.

I don't know what all is included in "another case of the same" but if it includes going to hang out with a larger group of friends(actually the friends I usually trust the most), them being mean to you and then hearing that before I showed up they were all talking about me... or wanting to be nice to Alex and go see his computer because it is a big deal to him, only to walk up to his house as ryan whispers to alex and kara "Peter's here"... smooth... if those are just EXAMPLES of "another case of the same" then yeah I guess it is another case of the same. so if you want to talk about not telling someone, put yourself in my shoes and see if you would talk to them. and about being a man of God... recently I haven't been a great one, and I am trying to turn that around... that is why I said I'm going to keep on turning, and turn to Jesus, which implies that I haven't been focused on God. But now that I am I would like to face that problem.

Ryan, you are being a jackass to me, and you have been for over a week. everytime I hang out with you you make me feel like a piece of crap. and I'm tired of it because I'm not a piece of crap. so maybe you do want to hang out with me, but I really don't want to hang out with you, and that is also why when I call and ask what people are doing I sometimes change my mind, because I don't want to feel like crap and I don't want to be around you when you act this way. I am here if you want to talk ryan, but if you just want to hang out and be a jackass, I'll pass.

HOLY CRAP Peter that was personal. yeah, so there you go EVERYBODY and their mothers(apparently a few mothers read my blog, hi moms!)... but why did you post that when it is a personal thing between you and ryan. well I will talk to ryan about it when he is ready, but there is also information in here that I thought would be useful to people other than ryan. that is fine, but why did you post the paragraph only to ryan? well because obviously we need prayer in this area, and the more you know the better you can pray. so if you would, bring out those kneepads again and pray for this situation how you feel fit.

and that other comment on how everybody is a sinner, yes we are all sinners, but we(christians) are forgiven of those sins because Jesus Christ died, all we have to do is humbly ask God(the father) to forgive us. A clean slate.

well I feel like I don't really have very many friends right now, I know I do have friends that care for me, but a lot of them seem to be either pissed off at me or acting weird around me... maybe something is going on in their lives, or maybe I just piss them off... whatever it is, I'm tired of it, so I've decided to...

Keep on turnin'. what does that mean Peter? well, when I was in a funk earlier I turned to my friends for help, but that seemed to backfire(I pissed them off), then I turned to work, but that wasn't what I was looking for either, so... I'm going to keep on turnin'... and turn to the person I should have turned to first. Jesus Christ.

Jesus will know what to do, all I have to do is trust him. it may be hard and it may suck, but it will be worth it.

so if you would, get out your knee pads and pray for me to trust in God and to get through this rough patch quickly.

oh, and who can pray? well I lost the reference, but in a bible study I was doing a few days ago this is a quote I wrote down.

"We know that God does not listen to sinners. He listens to the godly man who does his will."

so there you go, from this quote we see that anyone can pray but God only listens to the godly man who does his will.

This will be a very random blog entry.

for starters(or entree if you wish)... I just finished watching the first season of the O.C. on my computer, I've seen a lot of them, but now I've seen them ALL! yeah... so now that that is done with, listening to some great stuff... EARTH WIND & FIRE!!! yeah, these guys are tight... just ask ryan.

I've decided I'm not going to go back to F.E.P.C. this summer, I'm going to Antioch Bible Church in Kirkland. yeah, so... now you know, and knowing is half the battle, thank you G.I. Joe.

Alright, something that came up the first time I went to antioch... who can pray? Can everyone pray? Can God hear everyone's prayers? can only christians pray? well, I have some thoughts on this, but I want to hear what you have to say, so drop me a com-bomb.

I've decided that next year I am going to work out a lot and try to become huge, not gross huge, just larger than I am now. I also want to be able to run 3 miles in under 20 minutes. That's kinda crazy, but hey, bring it. I'll try, and we'll see what happens. so pretty much after next year I will be a machine! I gotta do something about these glasses though...

Tomorrow is going to suck, I have to be AT work at 6:20, oh, and work is in Bellevue, which means, I get to wake up around 4:45-5:00... suck.

Crunch Crunch.

I apologize to everyone I offended in my "confiwhat" post. that wasn't right of me. I wasn't trying to tell people that they are insecure or to even imply that. I was trying to say how little things such as clothes can get some motors running(not implying that the people who talked to me about this had their motors running). that's all, but I messed it up and it came out wrong, and for that, I apologize.

alright, well in response to ryan's comment on the last entry... not this entry because I am writing this entry right now and there is no way for him to comment on this entry before it is even written! well maybe there is, but I don't know about it. moving on.

so why didn't I tell ryan I was going to go hang out with his girlfriend? well I was bored, I thought it was fun, and after a few days of watching the o.c... yada yada yada... didn't tell ryan I was going to hang out with his girlfriend, but I think he knew because of my mi6 style of getting her phone number(I asked him, and sorta made it awkward)... awesome.

yeah, so really I got bored, and that was fun. later yall. no harm done.

alright, well you are right ryan, you don't get your best friend's girlfriends number for nothing... tonite, instead of going to hang out with the usual crowd, I decided to take some time to get to know someone I know, but don't really "know", you know?

I went to bubble tea with Lindsay... what? you went on a date with ryan's girlfriend??? No, I met her there to talk with her because I realized that I didn't know her that well and we never have really talked into that much detail... so we went to bubble tea and I got to know my best friend's girlfriend. it was fun, we talked, and just sort of hung out... it was cool, we got to talk about common stuff like ryan and church and such... she's cool, I definitely approve ryan, not that you needed my approval or anything, but I do. you've got a caring girlfriend with a heart for the lord. and I'm glad that I got to know her, she IS dating my best friend(just in case you haven't picked that up)... plus, I saved up $3.83 and wanted bubble tea, but I knew if I tried to get a big group of people to go up to seattle, someone would whine, and I didn't want to deal with that, so I met Lindsay(who lives up there)... man sometimes my genius outsmarts me... get it? I don't either ;)...

yeah, goodnight everybody

alright, the capri thing(a couple people have talked to me about this) is my personal opinion, if you think you look good in them, fine, that is your opinion, if I have told you that you look good in capris, don't doubt it, I try not to lie, and you probably do look good in capris. ok? jeez, but this whole thing has got me thinking about how a little comment can get people's motors running... jeez, I said that I didn't like capris and people started saying "I think I look good in capris"..."capris aren't ugly"..."you have even said I look good in capris" and so on and so on... holy crap they are clothes! sure I don't like them, but are you so unsure of yourself that you need me to tell you that you look good in them even though you know I don't like them? read Matthew 6:25 and stop worrying about it... they are clothes, people wear capris around me, and that is fine. heck if EVERYONE(including guys) wore capris one night, although a little strange, it'd be fine, because it is their choice and who am I to tell them what to wear. funny visual thinking of guys such as ryan, alex and myself in capris... actually more gross than funny.

capris rarely look good on people(although there are obvious exceptions to this rule)...
crunch berries MAKE captian crunch...
N'sync is better than the backstreet boys... always have always will, although the backstreet boys have had some good songs...
glasses make people look nerdy.
shaving is fine, don't matter, it's all preferance.
baseball is usually boring...
Brad Pitt is a stud...cmon, he is and you know it!
Pepsi is better than coke
country music can and is good music.

more later, but respond how you want... bye!

capris rarely look good on people(although there are obvious exceptions to this rule)...
crunch berries MAKE captian crunch...
N'sync is better than the backstreet boys... always have always will, although the backstreet boys have had some good songs...
glasses make people look nerdy.
shaving is fine, don't matter, it's all preferance.
baseball is usually boring...
Brad Pitt is a stud...cmon, he is and you know it!
Pepsi is better than coke
country music can and is good music.

more later, but respond how you want... bye!

YEAH, HOLY CRAP CAPS LOCK! Sorry about that. almost lost it, jeez, alright, well today was a complete success, exept that one thing, but we'll get to that later, oh and that other thing... whatever, let's get to the stories!

woke up to Levi calling, talked to him for a few minutes and then tried to get back to sleep, but couldn't because the puppy was going psycho on the back porch and just whining... so I got to wake up at the beautiful hour of 8 a.m... after that, I wrestled(is that spelled right? looks REAL weird to me)... anyway, the dog bit my hair and ear and stuff and then fell off the bed(hilarious)... yeah, then we accidentally pissed off half the world's ant population which nicely decided to climb both our legs... so the dog was whining, so we picked off ants for a LONG time... seriously like 50-100 ants on that dog... jeez... so then I went to coffee with ryan(who was more than a half an hour late, yeah, that's right, but whatever it was WAY worth the wait... that guy is super cool, but sorry ladies, he's taken.)... so yeah, we had coffee until noon... two hours for me, hour and a half for Ryan... I had two drinks... mmm... starbucks...

ON TO STARBUCKS! ok seriously, I love that place!... seriously, if ANYONE wants to go to starbucks with me sometime, drop me a call and I'll see what I can do... I don't work all the time so I have time, but yeah, not only that... I'll pay, how does that sound? so quick hurry call me right away and set up a time, there are limited resources so get your fill... but there is one catch... we have to talk, you can't make me pay for a drink and then leave, that's not nice... second thought, you can, but I would be dissapointed... but yeah, we have to talk... nothing freaky or anything, just have a nice little chat about life, and maybe something pushing the edges... whatever.

yeah, so after starbucks I went home, watched some o.c. then went to work... building a gazebo for a lady on Mercer Island... super nice house... seriously, it was nuts... so after that it was rush hour and I didn't want to go home... so...??? I called ryan and he came up to bell square(I work in bellevue) so we met there, then carpooled to Seattle, and got bubble tea(awesome) and ate at Dick's drive in(Awesome)... but not only that... ryan had his cd's there... therefore???... we were ROCKIN' OUT... seriously... Backstreet Millenium... No strings attached... So real... and even his (and mine he just called it first and I'm a lame follower) N.E.R.D. - "things are getting better"... oh man, such a quality song... some jimmy fallon too, that guy is funny... anyways I gotta go... oh, I met lindsay's family who were ALL nice... it was cool...

but it is 11:30 and I have to wake up at 4:45 an it is FREAKIN' hot in here so I probably won't be able to get to sleep until after 1... ugh... work... I love it though.
night everyone... oh, and I CHOSE to work tomorrow monring... keep that in mind... I'm a genius... stupid popular people

Alright, so ryan had that party, that was kickin'... I stayed up until 8 that morning(note:I got home at 6 the morning before)... so I was a bit tired. I slept for two hours, then went to church. I like FEPC, but at the same time, I'm ready for something new. so I came home after church and went to sleep at 3 p.m. and woke up the next morning(no bathroom breaks) at 9 a.m. yeah, that's right 18 hours of sleep! INSANE!

I had coffee with ryan some day(I forget, sorry buddy)... that was nice, we got to just sit there and chat, I sorta want to make that a weekly thing or maybe a bi-weekly thing... maybe I could start meeting with more of my friends like that to get to know them better and to help them and get help. drop me a com-bomb if you want to have coffee sometime!

Ryan gave me the first season of the o.c. and the third season of coupling on some dvd's... so I'm real happy, and if I ever get bored, tadaa! the o.c. thanks buddy!

alright, I love my friends here, and now that I have said that, I don't think I'll see you all that much this summer. sorry, but there is coffee and maybe something every once in a while, but I want to start moving my life in a new direction.

New direction? what?(I blame the glasses(don't get it? scroll down!))
yeah, I want to change my life. but, for the better, I hope. I want to calm down some, reflect on my life and figure out what I need to change, what I should change and what I should keep doing. but not only that, I want to change my life for the better in the Lord and in the word. I want to read more of the bible and truly learn from it. that is what I want to do, but the step I need to take, and plan on taking is to act on that and to truly change myself, it will be hard, but I know that people will be there for me. maybe I'll hang out with people a lot still, but right now, I don't plan on it that much. I just need some space to grow, if you know what I mean. alright, this is still a plan, so when it gets set into action, hopefully I will post more up here.

alright, so yesterday(now two days ago) my eye doctor told me to go buy a pair of glasses and wear them for at least a week. My eyes got pissed at the contacts I was wearing so I get to wear glasses... I haven't worn glasses since 8th or 9th grade so it's kinda weird, but I kinda like them apparently I "look smart" or something, but whatever, I think I might just switch to glasses for a while... a while being a year or more. I probably will wear contacts every once in a while, like dancing and playing sports, but all the other time... glasses. weird huh?

yeah, I also got a job. working for a moving company in bellevue. it's a cool job working ever once in a while for good money. the job I was looking for actually, good pay, flexible hours, and not that hard of a job. alright, I know it is moving stuff, but this is for rich(aka popular... I'm a genius! only ryan will get this.)people and we don't go in a move everything as fast as we can... we move really expensive stuff so we make sure to take as good of care of it as we need to... well seeing how I have to get up at 6:40 and it is 1:15, I think I'm going to go to bed. maybe coffee sometime?

Last night I went to a Lan party with Alex. if you have never been to a Lan party or are wondering what a Lan party is, don't worry, you just haven't reached that level of nerdiness(and may never)... a Lan party is where guys(usually) bring their computers over to the designated friend's house and connect them on a Lan(Local Area Network)... and then play games with and against each other. if that seems way too nerdy and complicated, it sorta is. We played starcraft for a little bit, America's Army(me against Alex), and then Warcraft 3 for most of the remainder of the night. I got home at 6:10 a.m. which is sad for two reasons: 1. it was already sunny out. 2. I'm staying up all night(or almost all night) tonite at ryan's party. yeah, so sleep isn't scheduled anywhere in the forseeable future. I woke up today at 1:10 p.m. and went directly to changs mongolian grill(paid for by poker winnings of last night).

Fyi... I LOVE changs. it's just SO good, but I usually eat too much and then I don't feel so hot, but once again, whatever. this trip to changs was a little different than usual. I got in line for the first time right behind this family of 8(4 on each side for those of you that know how changs works)... so this family was indian(dots not feathers) and I being the genius I am start(like I do every time) by packing meat into my first bowl... but the first meat I always put on? Beef. so I'm packing it into my bowl when I look at the family's bowls and none of them have beef in them and then it hits me. Beef is Sacred to them. "You're eating their Jesus!" -as Levi put it... so I quickly move to the lamb and pack that on top of the beef trying to cover it(because that solves the problem completely)... so I tried not to 1.laugh 2. throw all my beef back 3. say something super insulting 4. laugh.

so that was the highlight of my trip to changs. I managed to insult an entire family that I thought was going to kill me(even the two little kids that needed help getting their food)...

ah, fun... then I went back over to Brian's house and played another two rounds of Warcraft 3 before coming back here to get ready for the party. goodtimes. later yall

What comes before Part B? PART-A!!! get it? well if you don't... I'm sorry... that's your loss... so tomorrow is the all nighter at ryan's house, and tonite, out lanning up the night. playin' poker too! but hey, I won 10 bucks! wohoo!... so anyways, this past week was friggin sweet. anyone else have a GREAT week? I hope so.

that is a fun title. alright, so does anyone else really like hurting themselves? because after today I realized, I do... but I'm kinda smart about it. kinda.

today, I went wakeboarding and tubing with Jeff Hedrick. alright, for those of you that don't know jeff, he is one of the best guys I know. He is always nice, almost always happy, and just a genuinely good guy. He's super smart(like two of me!), super good at tennis and ping pong, and easy to talk with. alright, enough about jeff... oh, and he fits into the "nice guy" thing well, he's single, yes ladies SINGLE!. his phone number is... just playing with you, I'm not actually going to give out his phone number on the internet, but you can call me and I can patch you through to him.

back to the wakeboarding and tubing... alright, I've been wakeboarding twice before in my life, but apparently I'm pretty good at it, jeff thought I had been out around 8-12 times before... I can get up and manuever pretty well, can't land jumps quite yet, but I'm starting to get better. so... me in all my excellence decide to just go for it and get air... genius!... so the first run(of two, runs include a few times getting up each) I bit it kinda hard, including a two to three footer superman, which doesn't seem like much, but add in the fact that I'm going 20 mph. The second run I did a little better, learned from my superman experience and leaned back, plus I didn't want to go as crazy because inbetween runs we picked up two girls, and I got shy. I did pretty well though.

onto tubing. tubing... well... what's a good way to put it?... I LOVE it.

tubing is so much fun. it includes barrel rolling, eventhough I'm one of few that do those... it is so much fun!... jeff's dad was whipping us around corners at about 30, which makes us go a whole heck of a lot faster... it was so much fun, but that is TOO fast for me to do barrel rolls, I got scared... I'll admit it... I'm crazy, but that is just nuts!!!... so then jeff was tired(went out once with the girls, while I stayed in the boat(only 3 people on the tubes)... so it was just me, and well his dad decided to go nuts. it was awesome. I did a few barrel rolls and got HUGE amoutns of air, smacked my face on the tube pretty well and just had a great time. after I got done, I was beat. man, that is hard work.

yeah, oh and if that isn't enough pain, I decided(consciously) not to wear sunscreen on my body, my face had it, but I got sunburnt, which hurts but at the same time, it feel so good... you know?

today was awesome.

well other than being a popular women's deodorant... har har har... alright, so good secrets are hard to keep, especially when it is an outgoing redhead that likes to do things with people who don't know the secret. ah, life is fun.

well again I'm listening to the sugar cult cd... and I'm starting to like it more and more. I often find myself half dancing while biting the lower lip because I'm "rockin' out" or whatever... goodtimes. I wish I could play instruments... actually, only ONE would be good too... oh well, my sister got all the musical talent in the family except for Levi who used to play drums. I just can't read music... well, I can't get myself to sit there long enough to get my brain to memorize what the music notes are, how about that?

alright, I hung out with Alex, kara, liz and briggs last night, kaitlin was there for a while too and so was lucretia... it was good times, briggs told me that I had changed since last year. I find that to be true... and I like it, and it seems that others like it too, so I'm going to stick with it. I have no idea what that paragraph was going to say or what the meaning of me writing it was but I'm too lazy to erase it... enjoy

I think that is my blog entry for today... man that was a lame one... jeez, I apologize to everyone out there... oh and if you want to hang out with me now that I AM back in the states, give me a call at (425)306-0360... but I don't have that many minutes so keep it short, oh, and I like movies, dinner, long walks on the beach, etc...

alright, according to me I'm now officially balding, screw it, whatever, bald is cool, I guess that is the Schatzer curse I get, whatever... oh and if you haven't really noticed, I'm in a VERY laid back mood where I say whatever after everything, goodtimes.

I'm listening to the new sugar cult cd. I like it, it's pretty good, I loved the first one, but I lost it, so that makes me sad... whatever, it's only a cd.

oh, I love music, just to let you know. but it has to sound good to me, has to click something in my brain that says "hmm, I like that"... oh, and if you think that is bias, whatever, it is... so bite me... oh, and if you think that is bad, it's not... I LISTEN to a huge variety of music. yeah, goodtimes... still my FAVORITE cd to listen to is MAROON 5 - songs about jane... reminds me of the great times and I can sing as loud as I can to the whole cd... plus, it just sounds awesome. I love it.

I went to antioch bible church today with michelle and it was nice, a great church... they meet at lake washington highschool... go kangs!... it was pretty cool, good message about stress... then we went to the haven(the college group at the church)... it suprised me how welcoming they were, I cannot even count(probably about 10-15 people, which is about half of the people there) came up to me and introduced themselves and started a conversation with me... it was nice. I liked it a lot. I'm thinking I should go back, almost everything else in my life has changed, why not churches?

after that and a little convo with a great friend of mine I went to play ultimate with my peeps from FEPC. it was great except I totally sucked it up the first about five minutes of it. oh well, whatever. so I took off my shoes(my $90 oakleys, so I didn't mess them up, and my shirt(the only nice one I have here)... covered my shoes and socks with my shirt... then it rained. but hey I had a great time playing in jeans(nicely rolled up)... so my shirt got wet and my shoes were fine. awesome, only catch, I didn't have a dry shirt to wear home. whatever, so I went shirtless, hung out at alex's for about a half an hour or so(still shirtless)... quality... apparently I'm uber skinny... whatever, I don't think I'm THAT skinny, but others thinking that I am is cool, whatever.

alright, that is my post, oh, and I'm going bald, it's official... oh and I think I'm going to cut my hair... all I have to do now is find someone who will cut it for free... and will do a good job. whatever, maybe I'll just wear a hat.

alright, yesterday was a LONG day. but to put it shortly I had:
10 Pepsis
7 things of toblerone
4 sugar cookies
2 meals
2 mountain dews
and
listened to countless cds

how do I stay so thin? actually I know. but whatever. maybe I'll write out how I stay so thin sometime, but not today. oh, and I am now the lightest of alex ryan and I. kinda sad, but still kinda cool... I'm the weakling of the three... obviously.

yeah, yesterday was fun. but I did have lots of time to think. here are a few thoughts.
Carmen Electra is old. I never really ever thought she was that attractive, but now that she is older... not hot.
Win a date with Tad Hamilton is awesome, I love that movie. just thought of it, sorry.
owen wilson is cool.
oh, and back to wdth(look above), topher grace is awesome too... oh wow. "(topher, named pete in this movie... awesome)so do you work out?....(tad)nah... (topher)yeah, me neither." awesome.

I want to be famous. I don't know what it is, but I do. not THAT bad, like, I have other things I'll probably do instead, but the plan right now is for Ryan and I to become famous. oh, and Alex CANNOT come. sorry dude. oh, and if you think you can add some flavor... let me know and we might be able to work something out.

now onto something completely different... can people over 40 be hot? my answer YES.
alright, let me give you the three women that come to mind when I think of hot people over 40(sorry, I don't think guys are hot, I don't work that way.)(maybe brad pitt, but that is COMPLETELY different).

Sheryl Crow- ok, she's not a supermodel, but she is pretty darn good looking for over 40.
Kylie Minogue- another hot old woman, yeah, she's old... if you have a downloading program get the locomotion... that's her. weird huh?
and this one was brought to my attention today.
Liz Phair... alright, when watching her videos she looks slightly old, but then, I've seen some women that look like that and they are 25-30. she's pretty goodlooking for over 40.
um...janet jackson is too ghetto for me... have you seen her newest video? no. sorry janet, no love from me.
madonna. um, no. sorry.

oh, a funny thing that I like to watch... people try to untangle a slinky... it is just awesome. but actually doing it sucks. man it is funny to watch though.

oh, and if you have to cough, cough on someone young. apparently they have better immune systems than old people, but I still think that you should cough on old people because they most likely have had that cold before, and IF they get sick, they might die, which old people do. oh, and young people most likely haven't had that cold, so you get them sick no matter what. and that is just mean.

Is that weird? does anyone agree with me that pain feels good? alright, so not ALL pain is good. like if I gave birth? NOT cool. of course why would I get pregnant... nevermind, not even going there. um, yeah, so (finger in the air, bending it, then bringing it back to straight)... maybe you got that, but if you didn't, that was a conversation killer, created by yours truly. ah... goodtimes. so... I thought of a few more things that annoy me/I don't like.

1. ripping your favorite pair of pants. that sucks... I've done it once.
2. when your favorite cd gets scratched... like maroon 5 being scratched during the summer or something. rrr... just annoying, but hey, I guess they had to come out with the remixes sometime... right?
3. when your voice cracks while talking to someone special, or a complete stranger for that matter. oh, and you are almost 20. yeah, that blows.
4. having something stuck in your teeth. rrr.
5. totalling cars. that sucks, take my word for it. Drive safe, like I try to now.
6. not noticing a door is locked(or even there) and totally walking straight into it. only happened a few times to me, in fact VERY few times.
7. being halfway across the world from any friends.
8. totally saying the WRONG thing to a girl/woman/lady(alright, someone tell me what to call these females! the 18-23 ones)... yeah, because I sure have a knack for doing this.
9. not having money. but I'm starting to get more and more used to it.
10. vegetables.

alright, about halfway through that, I thought "man, that is sad, focusing on things you don't like." so... here you go... a list of things I DO like! (no paritcular order)

1. using the phrase "think bank"..."e-bomb"... and the new(ever so popular)"com-bomb"
2. food in france... mmm, so bomb.(I use bomb a lot, don't I?)
3. cuddling or snuggling, both are awesome.
4. hugs are growing on me day to day... I used to dislike them, but they are climbing the charts.
5. anything funny. ah, shoot, funny things are great...
6. talking about funny, smiles, I LOVE smiles. and smiling, that is great too. mmm, do you know how a great smile from someone special can make your day brighter? I like that.
7. Praising the Lord... I don't know what it is(probably the holy spirit), but I just love the warm feeling while belting slightly off notes to a praise song.
8. raspberries. mmm, SO good. my mom bought some fresh ones for me to eat today... mmm, BOMB!
9. country swing dancing... oh so fun... just ask brandon... I think ryan had a blast the one night he went too. oh, and the best is dancing with my favorite partner... she knows who she is... you're awesome.
10. hanging out with my closest friends and just being happy. like that triple date. that was awesome.
11. have I mentioned smiles?

alright, well there you go, and I hope you are smiling. because I am... time to go get some more raspberries and eat em!... maybe I'll post later, but I have a few things to take care of tonite, so maybe not. anyways, have a great day, and don't forget to drop those com-bombs! oh, and a shoutout to lindsay and kara for being awesome girlfriends to my bestfriends.